*my yesterday, how could it be so beautiful?

I thought of this while watching ‘In time with you’.

I’m 20 years old.

Yet I feel like 30 when I watch this.

And about 35 when I interact with some people of my age.

I wanted to say ‘most’, but that might be too much.

I frequently feel out of the place.

I can’t remember the last time I went to some place but home and felt not out of sync.

I once thought, some thing like a fated place or a destined person must be somewhere that I’d surely find them.

After all, I have already found a best girl who have been and always will be with me through ups and downs, a best boy since 8 years old till now who has always been a source of care and truths.

And a few others who I love dearly but I can never see through.

These people gave me hope.

But I have never been patient, and I can’t make myself feel that the wait or the search is worthwhile.

Now I simply don’t give a damn.

It’s been a while since I would rather befriend complete strangers in the most random place just to never see them again than spend more time than I have to to chit chat with people like schoolmates or classmates things that I hardly bother thinking carefully and can’t remember afterwards.

This is not good. But I could not have done otherwise.